Wild and Free

Meeting strangers in a new city, partying with them and getting asked out by three extremely good looking guys, was something I thought happened only in movies or maybe to really beautiful women but apparently I was wrong because it happened to me.

I went on a soul-searching road trip and got my confidence back, which was lost when 2016 showed its ugly face. I had a horrible year but I’m not complaining because I’m happy about it. Whatever happened, taught me a lesson, made me stronger and led the way to this amazing road-trip, which put a little magic back in my life.

I wanted to go on a road trip for a long time now, but I had the “someday disease.”

“I’ll go on the trip someday”, “I’ll become a writer someday”, “I will do all of it some day.”

Someday was a day that was never gonna arrive, so one day (which is way better than someday) I just packed my bags and went on the road trip with a friend, which I had planned in my head a million times.

It was an experience I will never forget. I was low on confidence, energy and almost everything when I left for the trip, but as soon as I was on the road, everything changed. Nature has a way of putting your broken soul back together.

We went to Goa, Polalem beach and met a Spanish group of exotic boys and girls in the evening, who had put up a campfire on the beach. I had taken all my journals which was filled with so much negativity that I wanted to burn them and the opportunity arrived. So my friend asked them if we could join them and they said “yes!” We sat there till 2 AM burning all my journals (7 really fat books) and drinking with these amazing Spanish people. I was so drunk, I don’t even remember anyone’s name but we had such a good time, genuine conversations about love, life and universe, which I remember clearly.

The next day, when I was sober, I read.

I had packed my favourite novel “Wild by Cheryl Strayed” and did some pretty wild things as well but I’m gonna spare you with all the details of my trip because it will be really long and I’m planning to write about it in a separate post called “Goa Calling”.

So don’t wait for your “someday”, chose today.

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Daily Prompt- Someday

 

Beautiful Pain

The weather was perfect, slightly sunny, and slightly windy. I was feeling absolutely wonderful, walking towards the French cafe I love so much. As I walked, I thought about how I was feeling in the morning. I pushed the thought away; I didn’t want to ruin a wonderful day.

I hadn’t felt this happy for a while now. But, deep down I knew that the happiness I felt was not for the perfect weather or the fact I was going to my favorite cafe. It was because I was going to meet him. It was always him, he made me feel safe, made me smile, made me happy.

I woke with a start; I turned to my right and got up. I always did that, turned to my right before sitting up. I had no idea why I did it, maybe just a habit. I walked over to the mirror (another habit), I saw myself and cringed. I hated my skin, my hair, my face. I was beautiful once, but I stopped taking care of myself and now I’m this- cracked skin, almost balding hairline and fat. I walked away from the mirror to drink water. I remembered I was dreaming just before I woke up, it was about him. It always is.

Today was bright and sunny, a day meant to be enjoyed outside- riding a bike, meeting friends for coffee and whatever you did, to enjoy the sun. I, on the other hand, hated the sun. So, today meant, stay in my apartment and read. I loved reading, books were special. I cling to books especially when I am low. Reading meant disappearing into another world, escaping the reality. It also kept me busy, if I was not busy, then I would break into a million pieces and I didn’t have any strength left to put myself back together.

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Daily Prompt- Cling

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Don’t give up

You might face a thousand problems in life, actually I’m pretty sure you will face a lot more. Don’t stress about it, don’t get upset because no matter what the problem is- if it doesn’t kill you it makes you stronger. Every problem you have in life will teach you a lesson, learn and move on.

Look around, the world is filled with magical things. Every day is a gift, marvel at the beauty of a tree or look at yourself in mirror, see how every part of you is beautiful, feel the way your organs work every day without worrying about failure. Get inspired by every little problem, get inspired to be happy. Read a lot of books, get lost in another world. Embrace everything in life, love life like you have no tomorrow.

Don’t be afraid of anything, be your true self. Listen to music, not just listen get immersed in it. Learn the lyrics, sing it even if you sound bad, just sing and dance and live. Life is uneven, find your balance.

Daily Prompt- Uneven