****This is purely fictional**** “He is such a delightful person, how could you break up with him? I’m pretty sure you guys will get married, this is just a phase”, is what all my friends… More
The weather was perfect, slightly sunny, and slightly windy. I was feeling absolutely wonderful, walking towards the French cafe I love so much. As I walked, I thought about how I was feeling in the morning. I pushed the thought away; I didn’t want to ruin a wonderful day.
I hadn’t felt this happy for a while now. But, deep down I knew that the happiness I felt was not for the perfect weather or the fact I was going to my favorite cafe. It was because I was going to meet him. It was always him, he made me feel safe, made me smile, made me happy.
I woke with a start; I turned to my right and got up. I always did that, turned to my right before sitting up. I had no idea why I did it, maybe just a habit. I walked over to the mirror (another habit), I saw myself and cringed. I hated my skin, my hair, my face. I was beautiful once, but I stopped taking care of myself and now I’m this- cracked skin, almost balding hairline and fat. I walked away from the mirror to drink water. I remembered I was dreaming just before I woke up, it was about him. It always is.
Today was bright and sunny, a day meant to be enjoyed outside- riding a bike, meeting friends for coffee and whatever you did, to enjoy the sun. I, on the other hand, hated the sun. So, today meant, stay in my apartment and read. I loved reading, books were special. I cling to books especially when I am low. Reading meant disappearing into another world, escaping the reality. It also kept me busy, if I was not busy, then I would break into a million pieces and I didn’t have any strength left to put myself back together.
Daily Prompt- Cling
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You might face a thousand problems in life, actually I’m pretty sure you will face a lot more. Don’t stress about it, don’t get upset because no matter what the problem is- if it doesn’t kill you it makes you stronger. Every problem you have in life will teach you a lesson, learn and move on.
Look around, the world is filled with magical things. Every day is a gift, marvel at the beauty of a tree or look at yourself in mirror, see how every part of you is beautiful, feel the way your organs work every day without worrying about failure. Get inspired by every little problem, get inspired to be happy. Read a lot of books, get lost in another world. Embrace everything in life, love life like you have no tomorrow.
Don’t be afraid of anything, be your true self. Listen to music, not just listen get immersed in it. Learn the lyrics, sing it even if you sound bad, just sing and dance and live. Life is uneven, find your balance.
Daily Prompt- Uneven
Technology is a wonderful thing, or is it? Few years back, I was not interested in online shopping, I swore I would never end up like my friends who always ordered online. But, here I am in the liminal stage of being broke by online shopping. Bought three new books and a bag online because I couldn’t sleep. I have become one of those people who shops unwanted things (not books or bags, sometimes I order unwanted things). Guilty as charged.
If it was 2005 and I couldn’t sleep, I would have read a book or listened to music or even watched TV, but now my phone shows me all the things I would love to have, even gives me suggestion on what I should buy.
I can’t tell if I’m in charge of my phone or vise versa. Every time I’m bored or traveling or have a little free time, I end up browsing Facebook, Pinterest or reading online even though I have a book in my bag. I know I should stop if I’m over doing it, but once I see my Facebook friend, whom I have not spoken to in over 10 years, posting pictures of herself in “Paris”, then my crazy self takes control and wants to see every photo of this “friend” and soon I end up liking her pictures even though I don’t like it one bit.
Well, my point being, technology is causing more damage than we know. I miss the good old days when my bank account had good numbers and when there was no online shopping and I didn’t have to see photos of a person I hardly spoke to, pouting in front of Eiffel Tower, when I can’t even afford a trip to the super market.
Three thing I am always satisfied with is, of course the title gave it away, clothes, food and reading. I always buy good clothes, it’s like I’m investing my money on something that will make me feel wonderful, so why not do a good job at it. I keep myself updated with the latest trends, but most of the time I don’t follow the trends. I always end up buying comfort clothing but super gorgeous. You can’t be satisfied if your feet hurt horribly because you’re wearing high heels or if you’re wearing something so uncomfortable that you need to visit the restroom every hour. Be comfortable is my motto in life.
Now coming to food, well we wouldn’t be alive without it. I’m more than satisfied with it, especially during festivals. The food gets yummier and I get fatter ( it doesn’t rhyme but it’s the truth). I’m pretty sure the daily post came up with this prompt because of Thanksgiving. Well, my appetite was fully sated this festival.
Well, reading fills me with excess joy. I love jumping into the world created by writers everywhere, I especially love reading stories on Wattpad (not that I don’t read real books, I have read Charles Dickinson’s books thank you very much-it was boring by the way, current favorite- Fangirl- Rainbow Rowell) because these are “wanna be writers” trying to write their stories for the first time and I love encouraging them because well, I’m also a “wanna be writer” and know the pain of people criticizing and demotivating with very article or story. That’s one of the reason why I’m always satisfied with my writing and with almost everything actually because maybe others wont be, but you can always be sated.
Everyone talks about love as being this sweet and wonderful feeling that they get, when some boy/girl or family member they like a lot are sweet to them. It’s a feeling, but its a chaotic feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I’m all about love, I find beauty in a confused and disordered love affair. I mostly find simplicity in it. I know it sounds contradicting, so let me explain.
Love is the most simplest thing on earth, but we, the people complicate it so much that we often use the term “lost hope in love” or that “love does not exist for me anymore.” However, the truth is that everyone confuses the word love with “hurt”, especially when they go through a heartbreak. Your hurting because of a betrayal, death, or any other reason it may be, but not because you loved.
The feeling of love comes from within you and you connect this feeling to various things, like you boyfriend/girlfriend, parents, your hobbies or any other thing. But that’s where everything gets chaotic, you give someone else the power to control your feelings. You set expectations for your loved ones, they need to remember every anniversary and buy gifts or they need to know how you’re feeling without explanation or something else. When they don’t or if they forget, then blame love for it.
When people are happy, they connect love with “immense joy”; when they are sad they connect it to “awful” or any other horrible word. That’s the specialty of love though, it’s just one word, one emotion but connected to many emotions, it’s chaotic.